It has been so long since my last post. I think alot has happened too. Where do I start? Do I want to start? Actually, not really. I am in a very weird place right now in Life.
I have been very busy planning a tour for Janu to go up the west coast and back down. We are scheduled to leave mid-October. I am so excited I can't explain it. Things are going pretty good with all of us band members, so it should be perfect.
I have yet to start planning anything for my Italy trip and I don't really know where to start. I read/skimmed through an entire 'Vatican City' book two nights ago when insomnia kept me up till 6:00 am. It got me very excited but I don't know how to start.
All I really want is for everything to get colder. Fall is late and I am not happy about that.
Today started with tasks at dawn. I was a little farm girl this morning; waking up bright and early and started chores right away. I did all my laundry, hung all my clothes, did the dishes, clean my whole room, straightened the bathroom, and I figured out my licence tags. I was getting all my duties done around the house, because i then had plans to be out for the rest of the day. However, despite all the nonstop work this morning, I had a really good morning hang sesh with my dad. I have been missing him so much lately because we have not done our ritual coffee date in a long time. We had a good long catch up talk...refreshing.
I finally got out of the house and made my way to the beach to meet up with Dustin and Garrett. We went snorkeling and the water was to inviting with the perfect blend of sunny warmth. We then together had a mexican lunch that was pure satisfaction. Then a short mid afternoon lounge in Dustin's backyard followed lunch. I can't describe it besides...refreshing.
Tonight was all about girls night! It was so fun. Me, Ash, Brenn, and Steph all went to Modo Mio for dinner. Conversation flowed as well as the fine food and drinks. We all caught up with one another's lives and laughed and shared all night long. Then Ash and I drove home together and we were right back to old times. We talked about deep things and I immediately was reminded of why she was my best friend. Best part too was, Matt was waiting for us at home! It was so good to see and laugh with him again...refreshing.
P.S. i like Boys.
Series of Unfortunate Events is playing in the next room as we speak...refreshing.
I woke up this morning and drove to Peet's with Jake to meet up with Bumper and Jared. We are collaboratively booking our first Janu tour. The plan is to start in San D-eggs and go all the up to Seattle and back down, in a fortnight. I felt like I was back in school, with the four of us on dueling laptops looking up venues and booking info and such. I got antsy, I'll tell you that right now!
I got home today from a very long weekend spent in I don't know where Arizona. We left around noon on friday and I was feeling very sick from a cold a felt creeping up on me the previous night. During the monotonous car ride there my sickness escalated oppose to decreasing; which was a nightmare mind you because the reason for Arizona being blessed by my presence was I was supposed to be singing all weekend. Janu got asked to lead worship at Howie's church for his Jr. High/High School Chi Alpha retreat. Well I powered through our first night singing at the church, then came Hell. We booked a local show in the area for us to play at after church called Martini Ranch. So we loaded all our equipment in the car, and at this point I am already passed out in the back seat. Well I didn't wake up till 15 minutes before we are supposed to go on. I get out of the car and I feel half dead. I manage to get on stage and we start our set with "Of Laws and Fables". I barely utters two or three words of the harmony with Jake and I stop. I whisper to him, "I can't sing". He tells me it's ok and tears rush to my eyes. I slid off stage and ran as fast as I could to the bathroom and locked myself in a stall to cry. I haven't cried that hard or uncontrollably in so long. I watched the rest of the show from the crowd and it was heart breaking to not be up there with them.
The next day started and didn't really get much different till about 5:00pm. I woke up around 9:00 am and brushed my teeth and then changed into the pajamas I should have put on the night before. Said my hellos and eat medicine for breakfast then went right back to bed. My whole day was a daze; falling in and out of sleep, catching just snippets of conversations. Well I finally got up and made it to the church to lead worship again. By the grace and power of God, I did it! We all went back to Howie's after and were hanging outside and talking, something I was very excited to do, since I missed out on everything that day. But maybe 10 minutes into us all hanging outside on the porch, I fell asleep.
Woke up the next morning, today, and miraculously lead worship again! It went really well, and I most definitely have a passion for singing in church, especially with those guys. The drive home was easy, long, but easy being with them. Now I am home and tomorrow starts a busy day of planning our first tour. Wisha me lucka.
I got home yesterday around two o'clock in the afternoon, from my house boating trip. Everything about the entire week was perfect. I fell in love with everyone there; kids and adults. Jake and I made really good friends with the guy leaders Josh, Dustin, and Brandon. (I may potentially have a crush on two of them, if not all three!) I spent a good amount of time with them and it was always refreshing. My girls that a led on the boat were unbelievable. They made me laugh so hard it was stupid. I felt like I could tell them anything, and we could all be best friends.
Worship was intense and I was very nervous but it turned out to be one of the biggest blessings i could imagine. It was like a woke up everyday and God had surprises for me just waiting to be enjoyed. Every conversation I had, God was there. Every sunset I watched, God was there. Every song I sang, God was there.
One of my favorite part of the trip was this one late night after everyone was asleep, a couple of us leaders took two boats out for a night ride. It was the most relaxing, romantic, refreshing things I have done in so long. The water was so warm and the moon lit up the whole sky and made the lake sparkle. Plus we were listening to the best music and it set a mood like no other. I felt so free, and young, and in love with I didn't even know what.
It feels great to be home. We all celebrating today by doing yoga in the morning, then got a massage, and had a healthy lunch. I have never felt so relaxed in my life.
Long day today...10:00am-11:00pm. I started at the country club and I worked a Bar Mitzvah from 10-5 then went to Peppino's from 5-11. I was dog tired at Peppino's but I luckily walked out with a hundred bones. I was on a wild snack attack all night at pepps and my tummy is a bit in shambles.
I leave tomorrow at 6am to go on a week house boating trip with Mt. View Church and I have not even packed yet. I am just dreaded the pack sesh. I am excited for the trip though.